Poem #254

A million years in the same place and now I’m packing up my suitcase. I’m leaving for the world even if the journey is only in my head. Let me run, let me fly, let me swim but just don’t let these four walls crush my spirit. The same wall I’ve been staring at for...

Chaotic Earth

I am inhabited in chaos. I want to move out but I cannot find the door. It keeps moving around like a poorly wired elevator. I keep stumbling on past mistakes. They trip me on purpose then run away screaming that I should’ve learned my lesson the first time. I find a corner. A safe...

Nature of the Hood

The trees were a reflection of their environment. As if you don’t have to be human to be poor. As if autumn was their favorite aesthetic year round. As if they all collectively decided to go on a diet. They looked as though every breath they took was an inhalation of a black and mild....

Semipermanent

I am the missing piece. The temp. The void filled. I am dry wall filler. Fixing their damage, yet easy to destroy and re replace. I am the holy holding this trinity in place. When exes leave I am the second string ready to re-re-replace. I am used. Tossed out then passed to her. She...

SituationSHIPS

I never build them to last. They keep sinking in deep waters with me on them. I keep having to survive alone in the middle of the ocean. Pretending I’m not heartbroken Not hungry. To be sailing with you again. I’ve done this enough times to know how to make my way back to shore...

Recordings from my therapy session.

I almost panicked. I almost cried. Not because I was scared. But because I was so comfortable in the familiarity of the heart palpitations. The fast breathing. The hot flashes. The overwhelming sense of worry. Why does panic feel like I’m home? Why does calm feel like out of place? How does discomfort feel comforting?...

Old habits

You been my friend since shy looks in the church basement on the south side Summer time And sunshine and the first time I’d seen Baptist women that can’t cook. We were young so it was hard, but we still traveled cross town for visits. Then again for hospital visits. During the aftermath of suicide...

Standards that are still double.

I am just a girl. So I don’t get benifits of the doubt like men who are just boys. See men who are just boys shouldn’t be held accountable for the responsibilities men. They should be allowed room to grow. But if I cheat, no one will say “girls will be girls” And if if...

Poor cycles

I would say put the guns down... But I don’t think the problem is the bullets, It’s the target. It’s the fact that shooters weren’t trained In the woods or at a range. They was taught by gang gang gang. Same way uncle taught them to swim. Just took em to a pool and pushed...

Celestial frustrations

The earth loves the moon so much that his waters move in tune with the power of her presence. But the moon doesn’t love the earth back. See I told my self I’d stop writing love poems but this is a heart break poem so it doesn’t count. The moon may love the earth but...

I feel God

You inhale my soul and exhale my flaws giving the universe something to breathe so that it may grow into something so beautiful. You manifest victories from things that were certain to be a fail. You use my tears to water me in hopes that I would show growth. You move me around the sun...

This house ain’t nothing like home.

Home. Where I step out of my skin and my soul rests and feeds. Where the bath faucet runs paint of every color. The walls are made of speakers that pour music into the airs stillness. The Ceiling is woven with words of poetry The fridge is full of the blood and body of Christ....

No Faults, Just Stars.

Imagine having a life such as the stars. Long lasting and flowing free in the universe. Ending powerfully and beautifully like the colorful explosion of a super nova. Isn't amazing? How stars shine bright not letting the galaxy's endless darkness make it feel bad for standing out ? Isn't it astonishing, that moment when you...

Financially irresponsible.

Sometimes, I wonder if I spent too much money on the wrong item. See once I realized it was useless and it's broken parts could hurt me Like scraped thumbs on a cracked screen, It had already been 3 years since I made that purchase. I paid a large down payment of hope, just for...

How?

I don’t know how I’m ever gonna leave you. I pray it never comes to that but you never know. Well.. until you know. Right now ain’t shit for certain except the fact that we’ve tied. Ever since you put your chest to mine and let our heartbeats collide. Now just as my flesh craves...

I hope you love me too.

I give pieces of me as if keeping myself together depended on it. I push people away as if them falling back won’t pull me down too. I wish I knew how to live for me solely. It’s like I’m depended on being someone else’s dependent. I thought I had your shoulder to cry on...

Light.

Yin and Yang were newlywed when they first moved into my heart together. It was all good until Yang grew tired of feeling like a side nigga to the hate that Yin had recently fallen in love with. She always threw her affair in his face and complained about how much Yang was not like...

Romans

Being a woman sometimes feels like having nothing left to offer What is there to give when everything is so easily taken away Like Our rights to our own bodies, Or Our respect in every aspect We watch it go out the window when we dress too boldly for society Or when we speak how...

Idk if this is a poem or a reminder to myself.

Optimism is necessary for survival. When every thing is dull and idle. We must trust the process. Remember God knows what’s best. Never question the hand he dealt you. Just trust he’ll help you play it well. Don’t take loans from karma cause she’ll crack your card and leave you broke. Don’t walk with out...

Imbalance

Asymmetric emotions. We Play tug of war with our collective fate. Fuck it, I’ll let you have it your way. I released the rope, You flew away. I ain’t moving away, Just moving a way I never did before. Caring less, Fucking more, Loving the same. I like my porridge hot, You like it cold,...